Holy Cinderella Batman! (Robin did indeed say this) What a week! Happy whatever day it is beautiful people. My days of the week have been off since returning from Palm Springs. I’ve concluded my brain stayed behind along with the Gucci slides, very irksome. Spring Break was a teaser for summer. Excitement for this season is a feeling I’ve long forgotten. As I type this, it sinks in that I truly cannot remember the last time it was. Shit that stings…moving on.

I’m currently still living in the aftermath of life post-separation. Because addiction is involved, it adds a layer of chaos and uncertainty, to an already stressful mix. Meanwhile, I’m attempting to heal my son’s broken heart, grow my Reiki practice, and write for my blog every week. To write, “it’s a lot”, is a gross understatement.That is not including managing my multiple sclerosis and training for my first half-marathon. How the fuck does one find the time? Honestly?

I suppose it’s possible to accomplish all of these things on their own, but doing them all at once? Eventually an area of my life is going to suffer. My son will never be included in that. His wellbeing ALWAYS comes first. Whatever I have to rearrange, cancel, decline, what have you, to make sure his little mind is well, I’m going to do it. He is permanently pinned to the top of my priority list. When I left my ex, I also left my Reiki room behind. Walking away from the business I was building was the cherry on top of the crap-filled sundae. However, that was then. Times have changed and goals are being manifested quietly.

My only concerns, recently, have been single-mom life, seeing regular clients, balancing self-care, and trying to have a sliver of a social life. I’ve reached a headspace that allows me to focus on both writing and Reiki. I am going to continue to publish regularly. Some posts may be a quick hello, perfect for work-breaks to avoid that annoying coworker in the break room. Other posts will be longer, better suited for reading on a day off or a night in smoking your favorite strain. Whatever your schedule is like, there will be a post that can accommodate it.

As my nails clikity-clack on the keyboard of my vintage MacBook, yes it’s vintage, not old, my silent business partner waits patiently. She has needed the information to complete my Reiki website for months. MONTHS. Information I am supposed to supply her with. Oops! Single mom life woes.

It’s ok though! That’s the freedom that comes from partnering with a woman who understands the season of life I’m in. And vice versa. We are both perfectionist, Type-A personalities. However, it’s our differences, which make us as strong as we are. We may be tiny women, but our spirit and grit is unmatched. When I get lost in my own little world, she finds me and sets me back on course. I am one hundred percent the ethereal Pisces, and she is the grounding Taurus. Honestly what would I do without her? Ew. I do not even want to imagine it.

I am not the type that drops the ball and thinks “Oh well, fuck it.” If something isn’t aligning with how I want to live, I take action and change it. As much as I love writing, I am learning how to balance this new routine of writing and Reiki on the regular. It is easy to get lost in one or the other. Both bring me profound joy and have been instrumental in healing my trauma.

I have a young child though, who still needs me very much. It won’t be long until he’s outgrown his desire to simply be in my presence. I manifested this life so I could be at every school drop off/pick up, tuck him into bed at night, and never leave him with strangers. It may take me longer to accomplish my financial goals, but my son has his mother by his side, no matter what. For me, there is no richer life than the one I am creating now; a life that places sanity and happiness over soul-jeopardizing, business practices.

I am excited to see the ways this itty bitty blog evolves and comes to life. One thing I am not is stressed about it. If I’ve learned anything in these forty years on Earth, it is that timing is divine, and it is everything. My practice will grow, the writing will be published, and I’ll be able to be the mother my son deserves.

Some exciting news: I will be expanding my in-home Reiki massage services to the Palm Springs area come summer. No, I will not be moving, my home base will always be LA County, but I’ll be actively pursuing a client base there. Why not mix business with pleasure? Time to stretch my wings and expand CDJ Reiki to the desert.

Are you ready for it?
XOXO